Felicitas Faantasy World

getting too silent over here?

2009-02-05T12:42:00.000+08:00

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Weak Heart

2009-02-04T08:49:00.000+08:00

First a snake, then now a palmsize spider with big cob webs!

Oh dear, luckily soon I will be having my season parking. I am glad all this heart stopping events is coming to an end.

Today I was driving my girls hme, Faith started to throw tantrum. She was sitting on the car booster seat. As she cries, she try to wiggle out of the seat. Is really a very dangerous action. I am going to get a new car sear to replace my current CMI carseat whose buckle would come off easily.

Thinking Hard

2009-02-02T18:15:00.003+08:00

Its really not easy to divide my time to all 3 kids under 5YO. There seems to be so much to do, and not enuff time. I really wished that time wun zoom by that fast. There is so much to do with them and no time for me to do everything. If only I wuld strike lottery, what would I do? I would quit my job, spend all my time with them...each single second.

Now that I din win lottery, I had to think hard how best to maximise my time without missing out any of the kids.

Sold

2009-02-02T13:32:00.000+08:00

We have sold out Nikon compact camera. Camera less now. With the camera, we dun take alot pics. Now that the camera is sold, kept saying "if only, have camera can take this pic" ...farnie right?

The end of baking

2009-01-23T19:59:00.000+08:00

After busy days of baking and decorating,finally the end. Rest.

Besides, the whole month of Jan, I seemed to have returned to childhood. The early waking for preparing the girls for preschool. Even though is a 5 min drive, we still need n hr. Foresee this is it for the next 12 years.

It has been a month. Body clock still adjusting.

Together with baking craze, I felt totally tired.

heh heh heh! Ultraman!!

2009-01-19T19:25:00.000+08:00

My sexy pout....hee

cme on, share ....

2009-01-19T19:18:00.000+08:00

The lost Faith

2009-01-19T19:15:00.000+08:00

The "tan pan"

2009-01-19T19:14:00.000+08:00

The leave sucker event

2009-01-19T19:12:00.000+08:00

The over whelming weekend

2009-01-19T19:06:00.000+08:00

My helper? (More of a destructor)

The end result!! Tadah.... I am really bad at lettering writings. In fact I dont even knw how to write cursive, i better start practising.....

The bear again!!! hee....thats for GM's party....This is done by fresh coconut, effect better 100 times then packet coco....

The cake i made

2009-01-16T11:49:00.000+08:00

My PT

2009-01-16T11:48:00.000+08:00

2nd trial using shermay's butter. Nt too gd, no strong butter smell...

Time is not enuff

2009-01-15T18:45:00.000+08:00

I felt that my time is not enough, This weekend I am planning to make pineapple tarts, a cake for Monday and a Jelly for a party on Monday too.

So many things to do, I felt suddenlt that I do not wnat to do anything liao. But I cant liao...Cos I made the promises liao....argh....

Tomorrow having a dinner. this week somehow, I has not been home early. Everynites there are many programmes. Besides all this overwhelmed promises, I had to spend more time with the kids!

Is it pro enuff?

2009-01-15T18:39:00.000+08:00

Looks plain rite? Well, for own consumption, lesser the colour the better rite...hee

Guilt

2009-01-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

Looking at this sets of uniform, made me felt stronger stronger guilt towards the school. Tehe fforts made by the school, I really appreciated them. However, long term finances enable us made the final decision.

Before enrolling to this great school, I have looked high and low for schools everywhere, on waiting list for a number of schools around my hse. Finally, a school. And a great one. Therfore the decision to leave the school, I felt great guilt towards the school.

Just when I was pondering on the exp school fees, one of the school with affordable sch fees with no compromising on sch standard called me. I was not jumping with joy, but dilemma. If the sch fees are not exp, I know I would never leave the sch.

Tomorrow is their last day i the sch. I felt bu she de more then anticipation for the new sch life.

The girls hair cut...

2009-01-08T04:23:00.000+08:00

The holes!

2009-01-08T04:20:00.000+08:00

The Before....looks scary....like anytime spider is coming out...

The AFTER...ahhhhhhhhh....pretty...girly and best is no holes...

Wonder y

2009-01-08T03:55:00.000+08:00

Felicitas started school together with Faith. Felicitas enjoyed school alot. But these few mornings, I had a hard time saying my goodbye. She would hug my leg. Today is the worst of all, she cried when I left.

In me, I kept wondering why is that so? This is not the first time she changed a school. Not the first day of school in her life. Is it Faith's influence on her?

Really wonder y. Deep in me, I felt frustration and unhapiness with her behaviour. To suppress the negative feelings from showing, I kept small talking myself. Telling myself that she is still a child. Maybe this is her way to tell me that she wants more attention to her. The same we showered on Faith.

She cried badly when I left.

School reopens

2009-01-05T04:25:00.000+08:00

I sent Faith and Fel to sch on 2nd Jan 08. Faith cried abit. I dropped her at 8am. When I return at 9am, she seems to be enjoying school. When I fetched her at 1115hrs. she cried big time when she saw me.

Today is Day 2. Preparing to school is still joyful. She looks forward to school. The moment she stepped into school. She started to be clingy. When we said our gdbyes, her cries could wake the whole estate. OK, abit exagerative. But is loud.

F1 loves sch alot. She tried to make sch easier to adapt by following F2. Today while we were coaxing F2, F1 became clingy too. I guess she like our attention. As we were busy trying to coax F2, F1 started to behave like this, it kinds of irk me. I have to keep telling myself. She is still a child. Less expectation.

To my swweet surprise, the school called me. The principal told me when F2 stopped crying. She is so nice. she even let me listen to a conversation between her and F2. F2 is very calm. She could even participate in the school activity. I am really impresss by the school efforts to calm her down and to lessen my anxiety. Esp the principal. I have sent F1 to many sch. Most advise to be with kids 3 days before we left them. This school told us to leave them on the first day. You could peep from outside to see the great efforts they took. F2 is a hard nut to crack. They managed! Could you imagine?

I have registered F3 for St James. I have second thoughts on sending her to St James. If I were to give up her place. 300 bucks would be wasted. How ke xi. I shall give this a serious thought, meanwhile observing the girls progress in this GREAT school.

Bathrooms, one for the toilet bowl user the other for washing up and batheing

2008-12-22T06:41:00.000+08:00

Isnt it smart for the earlier engineers of HDB flats to design in such a way? In this way those waiting to wash up would not be delayed by those who uses the toilet bowl.

Sadly, after the design to have a toilet in the MBR, this concept is no longer in use.

For couples who share the use of MBR toilet. One of them has a habit of clearing bowel first thing in the morning, the other would have to either use the common toilet or wait for the person to finish the bowel clearing, or wake up earlier to use the toilet before the the clearing of bowel action. If the clearing of bowl take half an hour, and the other only takes 5 mins to wash up, shouldnt the clear bowel person wake up 5 mins earlier to use the whole 30 mins leaving the last 5 mins for the wash up person? Is this unreasonable for such request? But in the end the 5 mins to wash up person has to wake up 5 mins earlier then the 30 mins user, wash up and wait for the 30 kins clear bowel person before leaving the house. And this is more reasonable? I feel that to let the wash up person to sleep more till the last 5 mins for the 5 mins user is better and reasonable. I was been termed selfish and unreasonable. I guessed I could not see the "light" yet.

It would be quite troublesome for me to go common toilet to wash up since all my creams are in the MBR toilet. The mirror cum cupboard in the common toilet is full of MIL creams. Plus if I were to bring to and fro common toilet all my creams, is really a hassle.

To avoid unhappiness, i guess i had to accept the better, unselfish his solution. To wake up 5 mins earlier, wash up, do all I want(I only need 5 mins), sit anywhere for 30 mins, or go back to sleep 30 mins before he is done.

I just feel so unjustified. Am I really selfish? Unreasonable? Do u think so too? Do I just want everybody to go my way? Do I just want to win that why could not see my unreasonble-ness? Please show me the light.

Licking clean

2008-12-16T05:27:00.000+08:00

Make sure nothing is wasted.

Foraccia Bread

2008-12-09T19:21:00.000+08:00

errr......Stone-like bread....

Bento #1

2008-12-09T19:17:00.000+08:00

First Attempt on Bento.

Is it EOY?

2008-12-09T03:40:00.000+08:00

This hse that I have shifted has been so cold....BRRR...

Felt like winter in the house. Was it the high unblocked floor? Or was it because end of year. hmmm....Esp the marble floor. Cold for the feet....

Day 4

2008-12-09T03:09:00.000+08:00

Last night was the 4th nights the girls were on their own. Yippy!

Seeing a PD on PH

2008-12-09T03:08:00.000+08:00

F3 were very listless and loss of appetite. She fell out of the walker on 5th Dec, I realised the listlessness could be due to the fall only on the 8th. What amummy I am.

Very worried, we decided to call for the PD. He was at My A. We rushed over to let him examined F3. He said it may not be the fall. More of a viral infection which is air borne. But to observed her, he did not prescribe sleepy medicines.

Stone dropped off my chest. What a relief.

F2 conversations

2008-12-09T03:05:00.000+08:00

F2 saw donuts on 8 Days magazine cover.

F2, "I want donuts, mummy."

Mummy, "Take out and eat?"

F2, "Nooooooooooooo *different tones*"

F2 took instant noodles packet.

F2, "I want eat.

Helper, "I put hot water inside, ok?"

F2, "Nooooooo *different tones* must use pot."

Decisions for doing up the house

2008-12-07T02:08:00.000+08:00

The decisions I made for the mini reno came out better then I have imagined and thought. A few items that I decided to made, and ended up feeling very worrried, were all "extra" worries. They all turned out better and best then ever.

I am glad the worries are over. We have settled in. We shifted on the 5th. With things everywhere. On the 6th 9pm, we were drinking ice wine in our dining area. Watching television on our sofa. Feeling cosy and comfy. Finally. That was fast isnt it. The unpacking. With 2 toddlers and a baby. Luckily it was fast, the mess is unbearablle.

As I was sling F3 all thru the unpacking. This few days, I am suffering from pain and ache. My feet ache as if I have just finished 10 km Walkathon. The walking ard the house whole day till late with an almost i-think 8 Kg baby, furniture to move ard in the house and the unpacking.

After 3 times of shifting, did I realised the pain of moving house. I used to love it. Packing and unpacking. One with F1 only. The second with F1 and F2 in tummy. Bothe are enjoyable. This round. Arghh... Pain and aches, but I still enjoy, just not as much. ;P

I want to bathe in a cup....

2008-12-07T01:59:00.000+08:00

F2 said "I want to bathe in a cup!"

I had to correct her. Tub not cup.

They loved the tub, when I was doing up a tub for the, behind my mind, something kept nagging me. Was that a good decision? I would never ever wanted to install that in a HDB toilet. Hard to maintain and may caused the house to be difficult to sell off in future. I went ahead. Never regret the day the girls used it.

They loved it! Its better then the swimmin pool we made for them in the house.

Best thing I ever decided? The tempered glass on the tub. Just as I thought they would do, They splashed ard in the tub. Witht eh screen, the toilet is kept clean and messy proof. If not, I am sureeven my mirror in the bathroom would have bubbles.

Out of the walker

2008-12-07T01:55:00.000+08:00

F3 fell out of the walker on Day 2 in our new house. She was like pestering me to carry her. I was telling her to hold on while I take a drink, and the next moment I heard her cries and she could not be found in the walker. Instead on the floor heads down. Oh dear. So guilty.

On this very same day, F2 fell off from the hawker center stool, heads down. She looked as if she somersaulted on to the floor and landed on her head. The whole hawker center was looking at me and her (wailing madly). I felt so disgusted with myself. What was I doing? I was eating and gorging myself with food, as I was trembling with hunger and not watching over her!!

The sleeping alone

2008-12-07T01:49:00.000+08:00

Finally, the girls, F1 and F2 are sleeping alone together on their own bed in their own room. I have bought the bunk bed since 2007 Dec. Its only in Dec 2008 did they managed to sleep alone in their own bed. Not a wasted investment now. I intended to use the bed up till F3 is 12 years old. So bed, do tong for the next 11 years. Hee.

What happened to the bed for the last one year? Well, they were only sleeping on that bed when ah ma went mah jong session on weekends.

Weekdays, our helper would sleep on it. We treat our helper well. The mattresses are Four Star. Confirm no abuse case. Hoped she would consider all the good things we treated her, and stay for another 2 years. I am glad to have her. She is one good hard to come by helper to me.

Crayola crayons for winning

2008-12-02T10:36:00.000+08:00

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Santarina dress with the xmas hat

2008-12-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

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Bothered

2008-12-02T05:10:00.000+08:00

I could not deny the convenience of living with in laws. The dinner prepared when I reached home. The taking care of kids without lugging them to and fro caregiver house. The extra hands available at all times.

However, its an art to live with them. And been a very fussy me, things in my house, their exact display and location bothered me alot. Over the year with staying with my in law, I have somehow tamed that side of me, but its in me, so I managed only to suppress it and to small talk myself off that fussiness and to look at the things that I botherd very much in a diff angle.

Now that we are easing ourself into this new environment, the location of each furniture deeply bothered me. The thoughts of, if only I am the only nu zhu ren in the home looms around me. I could not placed my picture any way I like. I could not place the furniture to the best of the home. I could have small talked myself off the matter. But the territory animal in me makes me want to mark the territory, to place the things the way I have planned. I refused to give in. In the end, to prevent war in the house, I suppressed, I did not accept, the urge to declare war was suppressed. I hoped no more incidents, no more requests from my in law, becos deep in me, I knw I have reached my threshold.

First is her pictures were the main thing in the house. Next is my picture cannot be place the way I like, Third is, furniture placing the obiang way she wanted. If there is a fourth, I hoped not, I could not imagine how I would deal with the beast in me. The beast would jumped out of my mouth, prance on her.......I could not imagine the bloody end....

鑽牛角尖

2008-11-21T08:41:00.000+08:00

擺脫情緖死角, 學習重新做人!!

Apple White

2008-11-20T08:57:00.000+08:00

Apple white == green. Apple white on the catalogue looks white. I knew it would look green. My ex hse, I mixed apple white with white. This round my contractor advice not to. I should have insist. His explaination is very logical. In future, if I mix the colours, and when there is a need to patch the paint, I would have big headache and so I did not insist. How frequent did I actually did patching?

Rose white, this is the best decision. I painted my girls' room rose white. Very nice, not too pinky. Very girly. Mistake again! Why did I not paint all rooms rose white. With 1 room rose white, does look weird. Sigh.

Another mistake: I chose the wrong laminate. Arghh. This round of reno, shouldn't me be more experienced? After all, I ever designed n renovate once before. Isnt it. The first seems a breeze. What is happening to me? On the laminate, I see straight lines. When the carpentry works are done, there appears curvy lines. Its a sore eye to me. I could not ignore them at all. Somehow, walking ard, the curvy lines seem to greet me regardless which corner I am in the house. I could not tolerate imperfection.

The last! i hoped. I told the carpenter I wanted only a light on the Altar. OMG. There, appeared 2, and worst, side by side. Why would there be a need of 2 side by side down light. Someone hold me, I am fainting. Irreversible change. Again, this should not be obvious, but its totally super obvious to the imperfection-intolerable me!

Herbs

2008-11-20T08:46:00.000+08:00

I always hoped to have a herbs garden. Is it possible to grow herbs such as basil, rosemarry, thyme, etc in spore? Does our weather encourage their growth? I sound so suaku asking this qn. *blush*. Hee. Anyway, I feel should be alright. Let me explore how to have this garden in HDB.

F3 updates

2008-11-19T11:12:00.000+08:00

F3 has started to crawl quite steadily and she can even stand up in the playpen. I did not notice her standing up looking at me, when F1 pointed out to me. I was like oh.....how did she do it.

When I went Japan, I thought by the time I cme home she would not be able to regconise me. But no, I was wrong, she saw me and still remember me. Lucky me.

She seems to be able to bye bye when asked. This I could not be sure.

For sure is, she knows you are going out and she would zoomed herself via the walker to the door and wail when you did not bring her along.....She is cute. BBies are.

Cold Storage

2008-11-19T10:59:00.000+08:00

I really loved the cold storage near my house. It seems to have everything I wanted and the best is, it's not crowded. Shopping there is a peace between me n the supermarket.....hee...I don't fancy crowded place.

Stove

2008-11-19T10:49:00.000+08:00

The stove has arrived. The measurement doesnt fit. Oh!

Picture selected to be a musuem piece

2008-11-19T10:04:00.000+08:00

so honoured....hee

Mega mac

2008-11-19T07:55:00.000+08:00

I am crazy to have ordered this. Super. Now I feel my tummy is bursting with it. Obviously with no surprise, I burst my calories.

This morning weigh - in , 47KG. When would I ever hit 45KG. I wonder.

This burger is a no-no. Its so huge that I could not finish and too bu she de(what the english word for this ?) to leave it unfinished (is there such a word?).

To perfection

2008-11-18T12:49:00.000+08:00

There are so many things I loved to try for baking. However, I had to remind myself to not rush. 2 things I have tried baking and has not succeed. One is sponge cakes, the other is muffin. Somehow I feel they are not there yet. Sponge cakes were not yet spongy enuff. Muffins somehow I feel they are still dense or even rubbery. Are not muffins the eaasiest? What has went wrong?

I would continue to take notes till the day to perfection. The day I would proceed on.

Gambate!

Trips oversea

2008-11-18T09:31:00.000+08:00

The Japan trip is fantastic and fun. I really love Japan. Would definitely go back for more of Japan. I loved their great service, loved their place, their sights, their everything.

This trip with hubby and F1, I thought I would enjoy the no bb no toddler days and no night feeding nights. No. I don't. I mis the kids terribly. When I set off for Japan in a cab, my heart felt extreme heavy. There is a sudden hope that I would not have booked the trip. I concluded that I would not ever go overseas with one or two children leaving one or two behind anymore. If ever I would go, I would bring them along. If bringing them along, means a tired trip, I would put holidays on hold till the F3 is 5yo. Is my motherly instinct so strong, or again I think too much. Sigh. That's me.

Regardless, I enjoyed the food and the trip. Trust me, Japan is a wonderful place to go. I would want to go again in March-April the next time I visit Japan again.

To scold but held on to it

2008-11-06T10:49:00.000+08:00

I nearly wanted to scold F1 last night.

We went to the supermarket with F2 in pram. Bought all the ingredients for the muffins. The amount is 14 plus, need to top up one item in order to get a stamp. So I bought a kinder bueno. I thought maybe it would be great to give F1 a task. So, I got her to hold the stamp for me and pass it to ah ma when she reached home.

Happily we strolled home. Reached home, I checked with her whether she is still holding on to the stamp. No. And she could not remember sis she dropped it? Or did she misplaced? The scoldings were about to spill out of my mouth when I braked. What is the point of crying over spilled milk? Instead, I talked to her.

I am glad I did that. I hoped that doing it the gentle way is not wrong. Gentle way may means easily forgotten. Well, if she really forgot, I will talk to her till one day she remembers. Patient parenting.

I really wanted to scold her. The kinder bueno is not like 10s of dollars. But as I specially bought it to get the stamp, I feel the pinch. Heart ache on $$ spent. And its only 1.45 bucks. For 1.45 bucks and make a child unhappy when originally the event is a happy one. So the pinch made me mad. I am so proud of myself. Too early to say so, few more times of pinch added together, I wonder I would be able to make it again and again.

The Fs

2008-11-06T09:19:00.000+08:00

""...emotional day, I'm very happy that she is married today but at the same time feel sad because my youngest girl is not my baby anymore and I have to share her love with another man. It is hard to let go of the kids one by one to another man. A married daughter is very different from a daughter that's all your own......""

I read the above and quoted from a blog and I felt sad. I would have to go thru the above 3 times. Be it girls or boys, been a mum, would feel the above. May not all moms, but I def is the kind who will. I wanted them and their love, I would not want to share. I got to learn how...

Shoe cabinet with a bench

2008-11-06T08:17:00.000+08:00

I had a shoe cabinet with a bench design in my ex-house. That bench was never once used for wearing shoes, instead a place for storage by MIL. Very nice design but no - no this time round. Should I put a chair beside the shoe cabinet. *Committing the same mistake again* Sigh.

Calories outburst again

2008-11-06T08:14:00.000+08:00

Had 2 of my handmade strawberry, whote chocolate muffins with almond, oatmeal and a glass of HL milk for breakfast this morning.

Big mac meal, no upsized, for lunch...

Boohoo....again....what's new....hee

PIS-ing in the plane

2008-11-06T08:11:00.000+08:00

Is it alright to express during the plane ride? Would it caused what that word? Would it caused disruptions to the flying plane? Hmm....Anyone knows?

Lunch box

2008-11-06T08:09:00.000+08:00

Next year, both F1 and F2 are supposed to bring their own brunch box to school. I hoped I would be able to make their brunch boxes everyday (no easy task), and is not only pleasant looking, but delicious. For 1 day, 2 day....to their last day in their preschool. Persevere(Is this word correct? Looks weird.)!

Another cup

2008-11-06T05:28:00.000+08:00

Muffin in cup

2008-11-06T05:25:00.000+08:00

Strawberry, white chocolate muffin with almonds

2008-11-06T05:18:00.000+08:00

Somehow is not fantastic.

Scaly Snaky F3

2008-11-05T10:41:00.000+08:00

A result from sleeping facedown in sarong.

See how small F2 is

2008-11-05T10:30:00.000+08:00

She is wearing F3 romper.

Waffles

2008-11-05T07:56:00.000+08:00

I made some waffles. The indicater on the waffle maker says turn to 4. End up the waffles were over crispy and the colour tone is very brown, i turned the heat knob to 3 instead and it turned out great, but the colour tone is still not there yet. I wanted to edit the picture attached with photoshop so it turns out prettier(the plate is not nice)...but I am too busy now....and so....ta dah...

School is ending

2008-11-04T10:19:00.000+08:00

Now that F1 school term is coming to an end, our mini renovation has been in progress, we hoped that by mid Dec, we would have settled down in our new house. Many things are together, quite alot to deal with. This is the great time to "xiu" my project management skills. And the best part is I find great joy in been control.

The greatest headache in the reno is the altar. It's my MIL idea to custom made an altar. Embarking on this project is not ezy. An altar measurement follows fengshui ruler. Since we were custom making, of course we had to follow. What is the point of making something not adhering? Because of the precise measurement, the carpenter seems to be irritated by me. I am not some one who is very nit pick. But to make an altar having measurements falling in the "black" zone, is inviting disaster. I hoped he would not anyhow make it. *cross finger*

The next as great headache is my MIL fu lu shou. They are 57cm high and 100 cm width. They are huge, yes. Can you see the headache source. MIL. Her things I could not put one side. I could not tell her to put in a storeroom right? I had to treat it as important as my things. In fact there is none impt things from me. Alright. So huge. Where should they go? TV console? I would not mind, but the design ended up is no-no. Worst design console award. To the shoe cabinet then. Its as bad as the console placement. However, is def better then tv console. Both items eat into my shoe cabinet which is suppose to be 5 ft width and to ceiling. Well, they are as impt as my shoe cabinet. To there, they go.

I hoped the outcome is better then what I pictured.

Everything aside, checklist for my trip is my priority.

PIS die on me?

2008-11-04T09:58:00.000+08:00

Just when i thought it is dead, it relives. Is a sweet surprise. She has been with me since 2004. 4 years and abit more. If it decides to retire, its time. On a side note, I treated it very well, no signs of wear and tear except for the bag housing it. That cant be helped. The places that I brought her are no gentle places. Most of the places she had been working in are toilets. Harsh environment. If you open inside, even the cable are tied like the day it was been displayed out for sale. If it has not relieved, I would feel heartpain after all it has been with me all these years, from F1 to F3. My PM ever told me that she is worth the $$. 4 years with short gaps of holidays......I should go home and take a pic of it.

Mar Cham

2008-11-04T09:27:00.000+08:00

Old people always say if we peep at people urining, we will have mar cham...and I got it. Just before my Japan trip. No ctc lenses. I have been on specs for the past week plus...I guess the mar cham had fallen in love with me. I hoped it goes away before my trip. I don't want to wear specs on my trip. Esp to Japan which I been longing to go.

Responsible Adults

2008-10-30T08:22:00.000+08:00

I feel there there are alot of irresponsible adults. Last night, I am supposed to meet Elise from Sing Capital. The appointment is at 8pm. At 830pm, still no sight of her. She is supposed to meet me to propose something for my hsing loan. Is this person could not even be punctual for proposal, could I trust her on my loan? What is she is just another Phoebe? Well Phoebe is the banker whom I took up my loan from. She not only not contactable when in need, there are also some other things she did, irresponsible. Back to Elise, so no sight no call. I need to go to the temple, so I gave her a call. Has this world changed? Made appointment, could not make it, and the client has to call and check is the appointment still on? Well, I called. She explained she was about to call. Would I believe? Am I 3 yrs old? She could not come for the appointment and did not bother to call me before 8 pm, stood me up. If she could not be punctual or gave me a call to cancel or postpone the appointment, I politely rejected her offer to made another appointment.

Why are they so irresponsible? Do the world evolve around them? Sigh.

I have learnt that been sweet to people, people would not appreciate. They will only MAKAN you!!! Bones also makan!

Nearly...

2008-10-29T10:20:00.000+08:00

caused F3 to choked...i was eating a pear, and f3 was looking at me with saliva dripping everywhere, I decided to let her suck at it, who knws she bite an edge off(gums only)...I was so scared. I did not dare to tell GM. All the while that edge was in her mouth...After abt 5 minutes, she spit out. Oh my. Scare the day out of me. I would not dare to do that again. I feel so relieved. Now that there are quite a bit news on children, regardless how old they are, choked by this n that. I nearly would be featured on the WANBAO. I must remember this day.

Finally...

2008-10-29T10:15:00.000+08:00

I got myself a waffle maker, and wat's wonderful is, its a 3-in-1. What the 2? Sandwich maker and grill.Best part? I paid 30 plus when it cost 99 bucks. I had been eyeing it since ........ i cant even remember, could you imagine? With the gift voucher, I decided to stop eyeing and to make my dreams come true.

I made waffles for the girls. With fresh whipped cream, the waffles came out fantastic, soft with crispy and fresh cream on a Sunday morning. And sardine with onions, lime and chilli sandwich for myself. My family members are not sardine fans. I am! Love it with lime, chili and onions. Do you love it?

Lastly, I grilled a sotong. Just sotong, no added spices, and it smells and tasted hmmmmmm....hee...

Loveed my machine.

Yesterday, I made walnut chocolate muffin. I guess I am not a muffin lover. Or the muffins I made failed.

Crazy

2008-10-23T06:32:00.000+08:00

Today I burst my calories intake.

I had mee rebus for breakfast plus 3 curry puffs. carbo attack....

I am craving for burger king for lunch. I am deeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaadddddddd!!!

Calories Counting wEEk 3

2008-10-07T10:29:00.000+08:00

No KG lost yet after 3 weeks. I wondering what am I doing. Too glutton.

Today meal:
Breakfast: Oat without milk 150 cal

Mid Breakfast : 4 Biscuits

Lunch: Subway cold cut 227 cal with coke and 2 big chocolate cookie

I bet no dinner tonight liao, the above has burst cal liao.

Officially a week

2008-09-24T06:46:00.000+08:00

Its officially a week since coutning calories. Sad to announce that over the weeekend, every think very berserk....is it call berserk? Haa.

Starting of a new week with no Kg (1 Kg) lost. Sigh. Is alright. Never too late to start!

Counting Calories - Day 3

2008-09-19T06:36:00.000+08:00

Today, I would try to keep within 716 cal if not, nothing more then 1716 cal, I hoped...

Breakfast : Oatmeal with condensed milk (250 cal), Bread with egg and cheese (340cal)

Mid breakfast : Sesame Cereal (143 cal), Tea(61 cal) **why am i taking all this everyday, cos I clearing stocks, if not I would have stopped taking this high calorie stuffs.

18th Septmeber 1900Hrs

2008-09-19T05:34:00.000+08:00

I did not survive.

Calorie Counting

2008-09-18T06:15:00.000+08:00

Today, I would try to keep within 716 cal if not, nothing more then 1716 cal, I hoped...

Breakfast : Oatmeal with condensed milk (250 cal)

Counting Calories

2008-09-17T10:29:00.000+08:00

Inspired by some success stories of mothers losing more then 5 kg in 1.5 month. I decided to do it.

Morning OAT with condensed milk, 3-in-1 tea

Mid morning Sesame Cereal

Total up: 500 cal(no guide, so a guess)

Lunch Sliced Fish Beehoon soup (349 cal)

No dinner yet: 849 cal liao

oh no, to sustain myself i need to have 1716 cal, in order to lose 1kg a week, I can only take 716 cal. Now I exceeded. So means no dinner? If really very hungry by dinner, I would take fruits and soup.

2 Apple: 47 cal *2

Soup with ribs: 104 cal

Estimate another: 198 cal which sums up to 1047 cal, exceed by 331 cal. Tml got to keep myself within 716cal.

Drive of your life

2008-09-15T07:22:00.000+08:00

OMG.

The Peugeot really is drive of my life. Its fabulous. The drive, the feel, the power, in fact everything. It can never compare to our first car. Its uhmmmm.....undescribeable(Is the spelling wrong? It looks weird.).

Best of all, it accomodates all of us, each having a seat with no compromise on anything.

A sprain

2008-09-11T08:22:00.000+08:00

Oh god. Am I dreaming of my trip so much that I cant see the step? I sprained badly. The moment I sprained, tears well up in my eyes. Imagine the pain. Arggh....

I cant walk the night, thank god to ko yok. Din knw it works. I am walking again, after just one nite. Miracle. Let me check that ko yok name and brand again. SardZ.

Tokyo here we come....

2008-09-11T08:20:00.000+08:00

I am totally excited, 59 days away, along way, but my excitement could not be oppress. Initally I planned Perth. owever F1 has been telling me that she wanted to go Hello Kitty Land. Sanrio Puroland. Well, so be it. To Tokyo. I have booked out air tickets and accomodation, 6 days 5 nights. Not enough. Should extend to 8 days 7 nights. But I couldnot. I could not go for too long. F2 and F3 are at home. Each min of excitement is accompanied by every min of guilt. That's crazy, but the guilt could not be shaken off. I am nearly impulsed enough to getting her an air ticket too. I stopped myself. I knew that if I were to bring her, this trip would not be as fantastic. Cold weather. Back to our Europe trip with F1. Few layers of clothes on off each time to check on her pampers. The chasing her about. Plus this rd is a free and easy. With lots of stairs each time we go on a train. In the end, f2 and F3 are left back at home. If I extend my trip, another guilt, F3 going on ice milk for longer days.......6 days, be it. I am just as happy. Anyway, I am not a shrine, temple, palace person, so were my family. Drop them. No big deal. Is a different experience, I know. The traditional Japan. No worries, I would be back!!!

My itinery on a relax mode:

Day

Itinery

09/11

Yodobashi and Shop around Shinjuku, walk ard

Kabuki cho (red light district).

A cup of coffee on the 50th floor at Shinjuku City Hall building.

Very good japanese pork chop, is at Takashimaya building on the 14th floor

10/11

Mt Fuji from Hakone

Ginza, mebe can go high class dining at night and check out the food basement.

11/11

tsukiji fish mkt (First Train out to catch auction), closes at 1500Hrs

Sanrio land.

Shibuya 109 in the night to watch the young weird fashion, 100 Yen Shop, electronics.

12/11

Ghibili Musuem (For Totoro Lover)

Asakusa Kannon Temple the oldest temple in Tokyo, walk along Nakamise Shopping Street and Imperial Palace, Make a stop at the Ueno Flea Market where you can purchase local food items.

Akihabara(wen huan zhong xin) (if u r manga lover - there r many animation shops) , Odaiba(evening nite)

13/11

Disney Land

14/11

Check out after shopping. Flight 1750hrs.

15/11

Reach 1235am

May change according to environment and weather. hee.....Further updates before I go(still fickle minded to change as there is so much so much just ard Tokyo) and when I cme back.

Perth

2008-09-03T03:39:00.000+08:00

Have decided to go to Perth. US is too far away and we are not self driving, expressing milk would not be easy and most likely would expressing session would be one in the morning and the other in the evening. Too long, not good for supply. So Perth.

Bring F1 and F2. But worried that F2 would get sick in Perth as she is still young. To bring or not too bring. So not to bring. the guilt level is so high that we are leaving her at home. Since the birth of F2 and F3, we have not have the quality and quantity time F1 used to have. We wanted to spend all our time with her, and this trip is good. However, cant get by the guilt feeling. It may be better to go next year when F2 is 3 years old. And by then F3 is abt 1 plus 2, we would feel the guilt again. *roll eyes* yes, and its never ending....So what? Wait till F3 is 3? Just go and spend the time with F1, make her feel its her only?

Conclusion? *Rolling eyes* I know you would be thinking, why think so much? Go first. What that guilt? Haa

A very early morning

2008-09-03T03:27:00.000+08:00

In office now, preparing the shift on Thursday. Leaving in half an hours time.

Totally sian, dunno which word to use, limited vocab. Sian.... totally describe what I am feeling now. Going to be out of office these few days that I had to arrange to cme back in the early morning to ensure work has been planned and people has received the message.

Alot of site issues and changes. Can you believe that customer is always right? In my work environ, it doesnt seems to be so. How sad. Pay money as customer and get whacked by vendors. Sian again.....

Sigh. Aiiii....

Cab driver

2008-08-28T06:02:00.000+08:00

This morning, I was not late for work, but I simply have too many things to bring back to office. As much as I like to defend myself that it is not an excuse, I do have alot of things from site to bring to office, I feel guilty that I spent 36 bucks on cab.$$ aside. Not that I am rich, to feel not so guilty that I spent $$ wastefully. I signal this cab on the opp side of the road. He signal back to me to wait for him while he made a U Turn. Many cabs on my side of the road kept passing by me, and I waited for him as I made a promise. Sort of promise. In the event of waiting, I was quite worried he may have picked up any other customer before he reached me. No. He came. I boarded the cab. He was so grateful to me. He kept telling me that I was so kind. For abt 5 mins. The next 5 mins, telling me not only I am kind, I already looked kind. An the next 5 mins, telling me how great my life is because I am kind and I looked kind. Deep in me, I was thinking, I just pai seh to board other cabs as I agreed to wait for him, not kind. All the while waiting for him to make a u turn, I was so worried he may not picked me up as agreed, and toying with the idea to flag another cab. But, haha, I accepted that I am really truly kind. *rolling eyes*

The cab driver is the real kind soul. When I reached office, is not heavy rain, is drizzling. He wanted to lend me his umbrella. Is it borrow or lend? I just could not get the correct use of this 2 words, after 28 years speaking english. Sigh. What an embarrassment I am. Who cares? Haa. Back to the cab driver, I rejected of course. Then he suggested newspaper. Of course that I rejected too. And guess what? This kind soul, too bad I did not note down his cab number and name. Real kind soul, told me to wait, got off cab, which was on a zebra crossing, went to his boot, took his umbrella, sheltered me to shelter. How great the world or Spore would be if everyone is so kind and nice. Isnt it. Well, I looked just too kind to leave me in the drizzle. Ok, stop rolling your eyes. I am kind. haa.

Today, I canceled my off to finish some impt work last minute work. I would like to take this chance to say a big thank you to M*. If not for him, I would be on off enjoying me time. If not for him, I would not have rushed so badly to get work done on the unreasonable schedule set by him. If not for him, I would not have so many migrations plan consecutively.

I got a feeling that all these busy work would zero down to nothing due to an exercise. *cross fingers* *get ready my bb smooth butt to be buah AGAIN* Tried my best. Still buah? Speechless.

Tomorrow I am going for Wall E. Free Tics with courtesy from IMB. Still contemplating whether to bring F2 along. She may not be able to sit thru.

crazy mum

2008-08-26T13:04:00.000+08:00

I think I am so busy that I going crazy. I was going to the pantry to get water. I reached out to take my tumbler and walked out of my cubicle with alot of work stuff going on in my mind. Guess what, I reached the pantry holding on to milk bottle instead of tumbler. All thanks to Michael, I am going busy crazy, trying to drink water from a milk bottle at the age of 29.

Hormomes

2008-08-26T05:37:00.000+08:00

With each pregnancy, I seems to change something, with my first F1, my face no longer is an oily skin and my hair dropped madly, with my second F2, my hair stop falling madly. With my third F3, I have serious dandruff problem. Any is really serious. I used to be on head and shoulders and totally in control, now not only head and shoulders could not help my dandruff, my scalp itch and bleed. I stopped using head and shoulders, has switched to silkpro, still.......helpless am I. I am going to the pharmacist. I had to stop this problem. And white hair after I had F3. Oh no, someone save me.

I just had to admit I am old. White hair and dropping of hair.

Faith

2008-08-25T09:57:00.000+08:00

From front teeth to the molars...

Gathering for...

2008-08-25T09:40:00.000+08:00

pretty mummies and cute kiddos, too bad it rains, nevertheless, it was an enjoyable event.

Glutton

2008-08-22T11:12:00.000+08:00

I felt like a glutton today. I had lunch at my office canteen, cai pen. I went to customer site, and she is busy and could not start the meeting. And WHAT? i had another lunch. Post-lunch? Wanton mee. Its true nothing to do will put on weight.

Double Eyelid

2008-08-21T08:46:00.000+08:00

F1 has double eyelid only at 6th month, i am very sure F3 would be the same. True to what i thought, now she is about 2 weeks away to 6th month, she is in transition mode, one has and the other not yet.

Too bad, i cant capture this down, camera gone. Else is good to snap it for them to see when they grow up.

YOU TO ME ARE EVERYTHING

2008-08-21T08:36:00.000+08:00

Oohh I would take the stars out of the sky for you
Stop the rain from falling if you asked me to
I'd do anything for you, your wish is my command
I could move a mountain when your hand is in my hand

Words could not express how much you mean to me
There must be some other way to make you see
If it takes my heart and soul you know I'd pay the price
Everything that I possess I'd gladly sacrifice

Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby
To you I guess I'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby, oh baby
You give me just a taste of love
To build my hopes upon
You know you've got the power girl
To keep me holding on
So now you've got the best of me
C'mon and take the rest of me
Oh baby

Though you're close to me we seem so far apart
Maybe given time you'll have a change of heart
If it takes forever girl then I'm prepared to wait
The day you give your love to me won't be a day too late

Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I can sing
Oh baby, oh baby
To you I guess I'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby, oh baby
You give me just a taste of love
To build my hopes upon
You know you've got the power girl
To keep me holding on
So now you've got the best of me
C'mon and take the rest of me
Oh baby

Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby
Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby
Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby
Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby, oh baby

Felt so excited today...

2008-08-11T16:27:00.000+08:00

I was on cartunes today...i did not think i would be selected to be the ninth caller, when the phone rings with THE number flashing, I can't help felt my hands trembled and heart pumping *3. I did not picked up the phone immediately, as I was still double checking my luck.

When I did promptly shake myself out of excitement to answer that "I know it wun be me' call, my voice was shaking, i could not think right, and I am glad that i did write the phrase down, if not, i am sure that i would blank out. I was very glad that kind Jean Danker gave me a 2nd chance, i missed out a word. And I HAVE WON the 2500 SMILES PTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It has been hrs since the call, I am still feeling the excitement in me! heee

Camera

2008-08-08T09:30:00.000+08:00

Our camera is spoilt. Hoped i could get it working by tonight, we are going to the frog farm and maybe hay daries farm too.

F3 has officially flipped steadily on 3rd August 2008. And she is steadily on her tummy looking ard. Too bad my camera decided to go on leave. Missed the shots.

Macaroni with creamy bacon sauce

2008-08-06T12:36:00.000+08:00

Elbows

1 tablespoon vegetable oil

1 onion, finely chopped

5 slices bacon, thinly sliced

250g mushrooms, thinly sliced

sour cream

1egg

grated parmesan cheese

fresh parsley

salt, pepper

In a large frying pan heat oil, add onion, bacon and stir-fry until onion is soft. Blend in mushrooms, cook until soft. Stir in combined sour cream, egg, cheese and parsley. Mix together while gently heating through.Season with salt and pepper. Cook pasta according to packet directions and drain. Serve pasta topped with sauce

SAHM Day 1 >>Tried this today for lunch

2008-08-05T07:27:00.001+08:00

1 whole chicken, remove skin and fat and chop into small pieces

8 - 10 dried shitake mushrooms, soak in water till soften, wash and slice thinly , or

1/2 can of button mushrooms, drain and slice (but the taste differs)

2-3 cloves garlic, crushed

1 one-inch piece ginger, grated

soy sauce

oyster sauce

dash of sesame oil

salt and pepper

dash of white wine

1 package elbow macaroni, cook as package instructed, drain well, and set aside

cabbage (optional but I use it)

garnish

Directions

Prepare the chicken. Marinate the chicken pieces with grated ginger, salt, pepper, dash of sesame oil, soy sauce and oyster sauce for at least an hour.

Soak dried shitake mushrooms in water till softened. Wash and slice thinly. Marinate the mushrooms with pepper, pinch of sugar, oyster sauce, soy sauce, sesame oil and white wine for at least an hour.

Place marinated chicken, mushrooms, garlic in a deep pot. Add about 1litre water (actually, I usually just add water until 3/4 of the pot).

Bring to a boil, lower heat and simmer for at least 1 hour. (I usually stick it into the microwave and place it on timer..1 to 11/2 hr, checking occasionally to make sure it does not boil dry....add more water if desired)

Season the soup to taste with salt, pepper and soy sauce.

When ready, spoon macaroni into bowls and pour the soup over the macaroni.. Garnish with cut chilli, sprig of coriander leaves and chopped spring onions.

Note: you can add leafy vegetables like mustard veg (Kai Lan) or even cabbage into the soup towards the last 1/4 hr to make it a complete meal in itself.

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Taste good anot, we shall see, too bad my camera is spoilt, cant show picture...

SAHM Day 1 >>Tried this today for lunch

2008-08-05T07:27:00.000+08:00

1 whole chicken, remove skin and fat and chop into small pieces

8 - 10 dried shitake mushrooms, soak in water till soften, wash and slice thinly , or

1/2 can of button mushrooms, drain and slice (but the taste differs)

2-3 cloves garlic, crushed

1 one-inch piece ginger, grated

soy sauce

oyster sauce

dash of sesame oil

salt and pepper

dash of white wine

1 package elbow macaroni, cook as package instructed, drain well, and set aside

cabbage (optional but I use it)

garnish

Directions

Prepare the chicken. Marinate the chicken pieces with grated ginger, salt, pepper, dash of sesame oil, soy sauce and oyster sauce for at least an hour.

Place marinated chicken, mushrooms, garlic in a deep pot. Add about 1litre water (actually, I usually just add water until 3/4 of the pot).

Season the soup to taste with salt, pepper and soy sauce.

When ready, spoon macaroni into bowls and pour the soup over the macaroni.. Garnish with cut chilli, sprig of coriander leaves and chopped spring onions.

Note: you can add leafy vegetables like mustard veg (Kai Lan) or even cabbage into the soup towards the last 1/4 hr to make it a complete meal in itself.

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Taste good anot, we shall see, too bad my camera is spoilt, cant show picture...

Saw this...

2008-08-01T20:12:00.000+08:00

in the picture below?

we went to

2008-07-31T03:48:00.000+08:00

Me and F3

2008-07-31T03:37:00.000+08:00

Let me show u ard

2008-07-27T03:21:00.000+08:00

I am very familiar with this pl.

Future Olympics representative

2008-07-27T03:08:00.000+08:00

Sisters

2008-07-27T03:04:00.000+08:00

Am I lost?

2008-07-27T02:59:00.000+08:00

The carefree innocent

2008-07-25T20:02:00.000+08:00

A self set up library

2008-07-25T19:58:00.000+08:00

Isnt this crayons pretty?

2008-07-25T19:50:00.000+08:00

It ended up like this...initally heartpain to see the head coming off, but isnt the whole idea is to have this lovely crayons with no restrictive rules on how to use it....afterall it wasnt meant to be intentional....

Sarong F3

2008-07-25T19:36:00.000+08:00

A natural kid's smile

2008-07-23T20:16:00.000+08:00